"it's not even that i don't but i can't. i, shit, what do you want to hear, harry? that i can't stop thinking about liam? that i can't stop wanting to be with him all the time even if it hurts like fuck, because if i'm not with him it hurts in a different way all together? that i can't even tell him what i really want to say, can't touch him, can't hold on to him, can't do anything if he ever goes back to dating, even if it kills me?" +